little paper crane flying in the sky,
will it fall , the young children cry from below.
no he won't,
the little paper crane flapped its wings.
as we see its red body within one cloud then the next.
little paper crane,
loves the sky and the wind as well as the clouds.
fly fly fly fly paper crane,
don't ever fall,
i will be waiting down here below,
till one day you'll come back from above
to tell me of your adventures .

simple white daisies bloom like stars on the dark green grasses.

they stand for the little things and thoughts ,

that didn't seem important to me at first,

as i stupidly walked pass them.

unlike real flowers that wither,

my daisies grew bigger and bigger,

become prettier and prettier everyday.

once as i was walking aimlessly,

i walked pass it again,

this time i noticed it....

i embraced it,

smelled it .

the sky seems brighter

the scorching weather seems to have cooled down.

i need to make more flowers like these grow in my inner garden.

My mind is whirling in circles and circles,
with beings adding fake imformation here and there.
my mind is deep in the darkness,
where no light can be seen.
my mind is full of fear and anger,
who can pull me out?
no one but myself,
who do i have ?
no one but myself or maybe GODplease send someone to me.
if there is a god, he would have heard me.
i need help,

i can't take this any longer.

i don't know why i've turn to be like that.
i want to turn back into the simple minded happy go lucky me.


i need courage to overcome this...

i can't take this any longer.

Iris, Your Personal Life Path Number is 6
"What is a Life Path number?"
If ever there was a moment of total transformation Iris, it was the moment of your birth. In that instant, you stepped through a door in time into a new reality -- the reality of human life. The most important number in your numerology chart is based on the date of your birth, the moment when the curtain goes up in your life.
Even at that moment, you were a person with your own unique character, as unique as your DNA. Everything that is you existed in potential, much like a play that is about to begin. Your entire life exists as a potential that has been prepared for. Iris, you have ultimate freedom to do with your life as you like: To fulfill its potential completely, or to make some smaller version of yourself. It all depends upon your effort and commitment.
You make the decisions to fulfill, to whatever extent, the potential life that exists within you. That is your choice. In this sense, the possible you is implicit during the moment of your birth.
The Life Path number gives us a broad outline of the opportunities, challenges, and lessons we will encounter in this lifetime. Your Life path is the road you are traveling. It reveals the opportunities and challenges you will face in life. Your Life Path number is the single most important information available in your Personality Chart!
"What does a Life Path number of 6 mean?"
Iris, you possess great compassion and seek to be of service to others. You have concern for the weak and the downtrodden. You are a healer and a helper to others. You are capable of giving comfort to those in need and will frequently offer a shoulder for others to cry on.
Your task in life is to develop the tools necessary to be truly helpful to others, rather than to simply be a sympathetic ear. You must find the balance between help and interference. In the same way, you must learn the delicate art of the counselor who knows when to leave the struggle to others and when to avoid taking away the necessary experiences and lessons of life.
You are naturally balanced. Therefore, you are well equipped to support and ground others in times of trial. It is in your nature to take on responsibility -- you often fill the void left by others -- and do not turn away from personal sacrifice. At times, you may feel overburdened by the travails of others. However, the love others bestow upon you is your well deserved reward.
Iris, you try to maintain harmony within the family or group, balancing and fusing divergent forces. You seek marriage and are often a wonderful parent, offering warmth, protection, and understanding to children.
You are generous, kind, and attractive. You are often admired even adored which baffles you. You are humble and yet you carry a deep pride. You move well and gracefully, but will have to work to stay in shape. Seek out physical exercise and limit the sweets and dairy you crave to keep yourself from becoming plump and round.
When young, you must be careful not to choose partners for the wrong reasons. Do not let sentimentality influence your decision, especially those involving the choice of a spouse. You need to be needed, but must learn to discriminate between those you can help and others who are made weaker by your care. After all, it is in your nature to be attracted to the weaker brothers and sisters among us. The temptation, and the danger for you, is to think of yourself as the savior of the world, carrying the burdens of others on your shoulders.
Iris, you are blessed with musical talent, as well as in the visual and performing arts. However, your creativity may well be suppressed due to your willingness to sacrifice, or your inability to fully appreciate your talents. This is not to say that you cannot excel in these areas; on the contrary, you have the talent, and with effort you can make a success in a number of artistic fields. You also have enormous talent in business. You are blessed with a great deal of charm and charisma, which you use effectively to attract the people and support you need.

Universal 6 Card Spread

Card 1 (The Moon) : How you feel about yourself now »
You feel confused, vulnerable and full of doubts, however, all is not as it seems. Feel the fear and do it anyway, because all will turn out well. Expect the new and unexpected into your life. Your turbulent emotions are muddying the waters so step back and try to find clarity of mind, although this may seem difficult. Things may seem tough or confusing but stick with it, it's right for you. The Moon is a good omen if you are in a clandestine affair.

Card 2 (Temperance) : What you most want at this moment »
The cards suggest that what you most want at this time is some peace and harmony, a sense of control and to feel that life is flowing again. Perhaps you have been, or still are, going through some tough times regarding a relationship, financial worries or some other kind of loss. Take heart that peace will be restored - this is a time for you to be calm and patient and life will soon have a sense of normality again.

Card 3 (The Fool) : Your fears »This is your Personal Court Card ( - what's this? - )
You are afraid of making the wrong decisions. There is a warning here that fool-hardy, impetuous actions could lead to major problems. Perhaps you feel that you don't have control over a situation, either personal or professional. You may feel unable to complete a task or stay in a current relationship and fear the consequences of your decisions. Perhaps you know deep down that what you want isn't really such a good thing.

Card 4 (The High Priestess) : What is going for you »
All lines are open in your telephone exchange with your intuition, and there is no better guide than your intuition. Listen, listen carefully and the secret you want revealed will be shared with you.

Card 5 (The Hanged Man) : What is going against you »
You are allowing yourself to be victimised and emotionally blackmailed by others or you're playing the martyr or victim to try and manipulate others. Don't be too materialistic or try and hang onto someone or something for all the wrong reasons. Someone or something has to go, you must find the ability to let go and give this up - don't worry it will turn out for the better for you.


Card 6 (The Chariot) : Outcome »
Conflicts ending in victory! Keep charging ahead this is a time of change, travel and success if you stay committed to achieving your goals. A journey relating to work is imminent and if you've had your eye on that new car it will soon be yours.


online tarot reading..
not bad quite accurate! haha...

and i like what is quoted about tarot reading

"I believe Tarot is an ancient form of counselling rather than fortune telling. For me a reading captures the essence of the moment as experienced by the client, picking up on influences or lessons from their past and showing possibilities for the future"Alison Day @ Lotus Tarot

Do angels really exist?
or are they just simply made up by humans?
can anyone tell me?

i really can't live without a god in my heart,
honestly i don't know how athetist are able to do it.
Angels, heaven...

hmm....

its hard to believe ,
but people do change.
never mind la..its not as if i will die without her anyway.
they can engage in their group activities 24/7.
As for me....

i'll..llll just be right oveeeeeer.... there!

haha...hardly the kind of person that has alot of character to talk about.
but my patience do run out .

I don't need anyone to understand what i already know.
i am tired of trying fit everything together,
since the puzzle pieces just simply increases and increases.
its seems impossible to see a big picture of whats going on.
I'm tired honestly.
Sometimes i hate myself for being weak,
but i am shooked hard enough by reality.
to realise that its not making my life any easier.
stop stop!
its not working..so stop!

i Love cupcakes..i am definetly going to learn how to bake them...

hi i am currently worried about my future..i was worried abt which course to take..and now, i am worried whether i can get in or not...guess the worrying will nv stop until i actually start schooling? haha...anyway good luck lor...