Can you believe it? i liked this guy for a whole 4 years and he just turn out to be a jerk! haha..its so ironic lor...i didn't believe when people hinted to me...all my tears , my joy all wasted..i feel like a fool honestly...haha..oh well i turned him away...when he finally paid attention to me. did i do it wrong? maybe i should pretend to be a nice person or something...but then again , its not as if i am going to see him everyday..so who cares?

1st guy- he like me but i don't like him

2nd guy-he says he likes me, but became another girl's boyfriend when she confessed her love for him.Then she broke up him when she knew..and made my life miserable for the rest of my schooling life.(thanks alot!)

3rd guy-after we confirmed each other, started going out, but it didn't work out. Felt bad for dumping him , becuz he didn't do anything wrong..and yes i made that clear...he could't accept it graciously...and we were on sour terms all the way till i withdrew from that school.

some people felt sorry for him..tried to ask me to patch back with him...but i refused.
they ignored me after that.

thsy tried to create a ridge between me and my clique , but they stood up for me(though we are not very close).

where is he? the one that is surppose to appear in my life...
next time when i actually meet him, im going to kill him for making me go through all this.
being in a all girl class is great, but i don't want to be a spinster :(((

wakaka...

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early childhood @ learning capital

to be honest i love my course! i've never imagine it to happen...we haven't really started on the course yet, so i can't really tell you much...we did little things here and there..and today we concentrated on apa citations , referencing etc....same old thing..teacher tried to drag time by giving us random activities, going through the lesson very very slowly(literally)...and she finally dragged it to 5. 40, the lesson was surpposed to end at 6. then she let us go.

some of my classmates are poly graduates so we got common topic to talk about.

might want to work in kindergarden instead of childcare in the future, but this mean i'll have to go retake my english...so that it'll be at least B4.

maybe it would be such a coincidence that i actually work in my old kindergarden that i attend,
tung ling kindergarden? haha..but i am not a christian so i don't think i will be admitted ba..since its a christian kindergarden.

but can try lor...

im really happy now....i don't know how my parents want me to express it so they'll know im happy..and sastisfied...but yes, im happy.

my parents just keep saying how unappreciative i am..
spoilt la..you see people...
you see this you see that...
but if i just say im grateful and thank you in return for those words they directed to me..it would be so meaningless rite?
so i don't know what they want me to do la
it doesn't matter when they know or not..god knows...
whether its jesus or whatever...
thank you god for making my wish come through...
i will not let you down. i promise.

nobody reads my blog anyway...
so im free to say whatever i want

hi..yup! everything is settled! so its 3 years of study..and by the time i finish the whole thing, i would be 25..i am actually considering going for a japan study trip to study japanese at one of the private institutions in japan...nothing much...just for the fun of it! to see the country , experience life there, and learn the language.

i have always dreamed of living in japan, so i'll make a trip there whenever i can:) i love japan
we'll see...

saw the modules , curiculum..not bad... i quite like it
we'll see abt tmr

i actually feel quite relieve now...
i guess my parent's only wish is for me to get a degree,
and they can watch me graduate..
i actually want to work first...
but my grandmother not getting any younger...
so no choice lor...
lets hope the degree course is not so long...
man university fees are so ex man..
i feel quite bad for my dad actually.
but whatever it is,
it will cost lesser than sending me abroad la...
so study lor...
i am able to get a refund from my previous school,
thank goodness

i can't waste any money anymore...
i will call tmr..to inform them about things...
shall not breathe a word about it to anyone until i get things settled

hey finally finished anatomy project.
took a longer time then i expected.sigh..but at least i still got time for
revision..surppose to be revising..but sigh...since im going to be here...until quite late...
i might as well slack a little....

there are just so many many people around you,
but you just feel so alone.

its just seem impossible for a person to care for another,
without finding out in the end that he or she is a fake.

now then know how to treasure...haha..at least they are still there..its not too late

the verdict

Turns out, im off the hook :) it turns out that the plagirism level for my essay, is very very low, and they(the examination board) deceided that its probably because i didn't safe assign my work..safe assign is basically a software that checks for any simmilarities in your essay to the other essays around the world(yeah...this is how powerful that software is la huh...) haha..stupidly ridiculous. and so when you use the software to scan your work..they will point out the simmilar parts , and you will be required to edit those parts , otherwise you will be penalised(which i already was becuz i forgot to do so) shucks...but its just a few marks so its ok..in fact almost 1/4 of the class was called for the meeting but only 4 to 5 including me turned up..the rest just can't be bothered la..im actually quite surprised when i realised that the people that i thought was wrongfully accused like myself, were actually guilty of such an act.

80% simmilarities, so basically i guess the person just simply cut and paste the whole essay..
zero marks would be given to those with 80 % and above simmilarities...

when i apologised for the mistake(to be honest i have never appeared in such situations), one of board directors , Dr Lissy(head of life science or something..) laughed...maybe she's thinking like "this girl arr.. how did she ever make it through poly? so blur..."

nath the class rep laughed too..spoke to fadila abit later...heave a sigh of relieve..i am already doing bad enough in the exam paper so i really can't afford any more low marks...im really counting on these assignments to pull my grades up...

i thought i was going to fail the assignment...and i was like WHAT!

but thank goodness...no.

i would just have to hand up my soft copies tmr and thats it.

the whole thing is over.

seems like im the luckiest among the whole bunch of them.

30 min more..hmm..one thing i really dislike abt waiting ,
is having to tolerate the air conditioning in the library,it makes my skin feels
so dry..i nearly got a heart attack yesterday, thought i was going to fail my assignment for
biology when turns out, what happen is really because of a small software in the blackboard that i am surppose to use...to check for plagirisim..i didn't check..tried just now, and it didn't work...i tell you if the meeting later is just another scientific essay talk , i am going to bang myself against the wall..so i'll remeber to safe assign my work next time..otherwise i will have to waste close to 3 hours waiting....in school..when i could have gone home..all i m worried abt is that my marks will be deducted..i really can't afford any more deduction..i mean i am not really expecting to score in the paper itself..so i try to make sure i score in assignments like this one, so it will help pull my grades up...i starting to love science..but its just so hard to study...sigh....

maybe i just need time to get use to it